4th chemo

As schedule, my chemo will be every Friday for 18 times. So yesterday was my 4th chemo and also making the new cycle of my chemo treatment.  Yah,  i made it so far. 

Of course there are done of my concern whether I'm am safe or not.  Whether it had spread to my liver or not.  All these things that i need to know were not answered yet.  I planned to take my test again, in a private lab.  I need to know my status.  I can't wait for it to be too late to discover a new things that's happening inside of me.  Whether something is growing worst or it's getting obedient.

Anyway, i want to thank Jesus for standing firm with me in this journey.  As i recall,  all this while,  from the day i was suspected of having cancer until the day it was confirmed,  i rarely cry.  I can proudly say that i cried for around 5 -7 times only.  Why,? Because i believe they God makes plan for me,  and i should just calmly accept it.  There's nothing i can change about it,  so why make a big fuss,  just go and experience it. After all,  i know he will never abandon me.  And i also want to thank Him, because of him i didn't get side effect as bad as i imagine.  Thank God so far i didn't feel nausea or vomiting.  I experience constipation but other than that, in good.  I'm eating well,  sleeping well and even can go to work without fail.  And continue to work in the office,  there are times when i got to tired at work,  but i was allow to take naps in between,  anytime if the day.  So, I'm good.